Thursday, 30 December 2010

Last blog of 2010

Well I am currently procrastinating.

Meant to be doing my essay on Eyjafjallajokull (see if you can say it!) but I have hit a brick wall.

Mom has Josh for a while so I can also see if this headache goes away.

Christmas was good nice and quiet and I got to see everyone I wanted to. Had Kyle and Kath round on xmas eve for a few drinks (Kyle got pissed and ended up getting a pizza on the way home). Woke up xmas morning just me and Josh (and the cat of course and Kath popped in too). That's the first time I have ever done that but I really think that it was the best xmas morning ever. He behaved so well, loved every present that he opened and actually stopped tearing presents open to watch me open mine too. Not that I had a lot, in fact I think that this year was the least presents that I've ever got but it doesn't matter cos Josh finally got me the Barbie doll that he's been promising me since he was about 2 and Jay got me proper sized GHD straightheners and I got monies off family which is good as I need a new wardrobe as none of my clothes fit me anymore!

I am now officially a size 12 so this lactose intolerance thing is really working out for me. I eat properly now and the only take away I have is a Subway as I know exactly what is in it. Been cooking again and am hoping that this will continue into 2011 as I have discovered some nice lactose free meal ideas.

Spent xmas day at my mom's (with a poorly pooch) and she cooked an almost completely lactose free dinner (I had to pass on the pigs in a blanket as the ingredients hadn't been checked) we played games and watched Dr Who and me and Josh walked home in the snow. Josh was that exhausted that he took himself to bed at about half 7. So I put my pjs on ready to have a drink in front of the TV by my lonesome but behold the Mr showed up.

So like I said a quiet one but perfect for me no arguements with family noone storming out asking why they bother, which is what has gone down in christmas past. Just perfect!

The plan tomorrow night is to go to my mom's and have the family do as we have started doing. Mom has the new Michael Jackson Wii dance game might have to get a video of my nan dancing haha.

Now is the time I usually make resolutions but I am just going to swear that I am going to let go of all the bad shit that has happened this year and start 2011 on a high and stay that way.

Happy New Year!

Sunday, 12 December 2010

New beginnings ...

Right time to update!

And blog is now going live!

And password will be changed.

There has been a few changes over the last few months. Josh has started full time school and is doing great. Went to see his nativity last week and he sang like an angel. Year 2 of uni is well underway and is really hard. Having to really hit the books and have my first exam on Wednesday which I feel completely unprepared for. I'm still not working but know full well that I don't have the time with everything else going on in my life and hey student loans cover my costs.

Even though on my last blog I said that I was quite happy to be alone (and I wasn't fibbing), I have a boyfriend. His name is Jay. Took us a while to progress from a very regular shag to being in an actual proper grown up relationship, but we got there.

I did hide it from Dom at the very beginning. He was still living with Kath and Will at the time and with him being unemployed and me being on summer hols from uni we would see each other when I went round to see Kath (and tbh I have a key). It was hard when Jay would leave me massive love bites (don't worry I have told him off about this!) but I learnt to work a neck scarf! I didn't want Dom to think that I was a complete bitch, which in a way I can understand if he does think that. I was hurt when we split initially even though I was the one who did the deed but always consoled myself knowing that neither of us were happy so it was for the best.

Like I said in my last blog I was kinda seeing Jay before I got with Dom. Thing is Jay was still hung up over his ex, very much hung up. And I knew that I would not be able to get anywhere with him. Dom was there and right at the beginning made it clear that he didn't do 'seeing' people. No I do not feel I was pressured into anything and am not putting that on his shoulders, I'm a grown woman (or so I keep telling myself) and went into it with both eyes open.

It has only been recently that I have been able to admit that I only went with Dom because I couldn't have Jay. Which is a completely horrible thing to say. I was fully in a relationship with Dom I am not saying that I wasn't but I did do the Facebook stalker thing with Jay. He did text me a fair few times and I did reply but never knew what to put and Dom would always question exactly who I was texting as he knew that I was seeing Jay before him. Even though it was perfectly fine for him to text other women that I knew fully that he fancied (because he told me). I think that a lot of the shit between me and Dom was because he wasn't the person I wanted and vice versa. At least I am now with the person that I wanted. At the beginning of the year I thought that maybe I wouldn't get him because when I was doing my stalker thing i noticed that he had a girlfriend, a quite pretty girlfriend. So I thought I had completely missed the boat. He was still seeing her when I broke up with Dom (didn't take him long to finish with her though!)

Well I got curious to see if Dom had protected his tweets after I noticed that he was chatting up one of my mates over Facebook and he had blocked me. I had a few fits of giggles when I read that he had been tweeting everytime he had got laid! My god if i did that I would overload Twitter! But go a fair bit angry when i saw the slagging off of me and Kath and Will. So I stooped to his level! I'm not proud of it but hey! Anyways I been on his blog today and saw that he had actually logged into my Twitter account (now fair play for not actually posting what he had written cos I would not have done the same) isn't that crossing the line though? I purposefully didn't change any of my passwords as we were on speaking terms and didn't think that he would invade my privacy like that! So I tried to log into his accounts and GUESS WHAT he's changed his passwords! DICK!

Anyway that probably won't make sense when I read it back!

My great-nan has been very ill and had a long stint in hospital. While she was in there my grandad (her 71 year old son) had a stroke! Well it has really thrown the family together. Me and my brother have never had a relationship with our dad or our half brother and sister but this has made a change.

Nan is now in a care home as grandad cannot look after himself let alone her as well. Grandad is in West Park currently getting rehabilitated and is hopefully going home in the new year. I took Josh to see her for the first time since September today and they had big cuddles and dad even bought grandad over from West Park so it was a nice Sunday morning.

Well getting late need to iron uniform for tomorrow and get myself another lemsip as I am currently suffering!

Monday, 28 June 2010


Been a little while since i blogged and now noone is reading it because i have set it up as a way of ranting now seeing as I couldn't keep up with blogging with a pain in the arse boyfriend.

Me and Dom are officially OVER! It was a long time coming and ppl do not know whhat goes on behind closed doors. Dont get me wrong the man was not abusive, he is one of the momst nn-violent people I know, it's just that he is soooooo not a man! Imagine if you will that you were in senior school and you had a boyfriend then who didn't talk about his feelings when you wanted to talk to them about your relationship, about how it is failing and wondered if you were the only person in said relationship that thought so and nothing would be said as he was too busy staring at his feet and consequently nothig would be done; that was what it was like being with Dom. I will now pause for a breath.

Bloody hell he was so needy but really all he needed was a mother and it's not as if he isn't close to his actual mother, I just think that she did such a good job looking after him that he does nont know how to look after himself. He can't cook, wash his clothes, pay his bills or even realise when he is in need of a shower let alone know who his doctor is, make regular appointments with the dentist or go to the doctors about what is obviously a fungal infection on his awful smelling feet!!!!!

I know pobody's nerfect but ffs GET A GRIP!

My only consolation was that it was my birthday on sunday and now I am the ripe old age of 26 and have wasted the last near two years of my life with him. I had a great time btw. Josh is still attached to him, he lives with my best friend so that feels a bt weird. I did snog someone after a few jagermeisters. How could I have possibly have let Josh get so attached to someone like that?

That is the sort of thing that my mates are hearing out of me. I start talking about something good but then I get sidetracked by him. I am not a selfish person and do tend to put others in front of me; even the fuckers who I dump so it seems!

I am not bitter that I spent two years with him there were good times; I still have the pictures on my wall from the MSI gig. Now that was a good night even though I thought we weren't going to get in there because Josh had decided to throw up and I wanted to go home to be with him. I'm not bitter that in the last two years I could have found a man and settes down because in the last two years I have changed and am constantly changing. I have met a great bunch oof people who i do not see often enough and have got great and ranging relationships with them all.

I will mention here that about two months ago I cheated on Dom. I kissed a guy from uni. Some people would argue that it was hardly cheating, but I have never done anything of the sort with any of my exes and I know full well that I have been in situations in the past where I have said no to the advances of a guy that was not my boyfriend. I knew i wasn't happy and no matter how many times I told people that me and Dom were doing fine it was always through gritted teeth!

I try to consle myself saying that if I was't happy then he can't have been; you cannot have a one-sided relationship. But we made friends mainly for the fact that i wanted some of my things back and he was telling his housemate and my friend that he had nothing of mine and also that I had ben to their house that morning and he looked as though he was going to cry. He thinks friendship consists of liking a few statuses and commenting on how pretty I look in pictures on Facebook! That is not how things work in the real world. So I added him again on Facebook but such is life, and I am a nosey fucker. But I have had to delete him because he is posting on there, I think, to make me jealous and it's funny because it is a bisexual (greedy in my eyes) girl who he happened to be paart of the reasons why she broke a friends heart in the past, a fact that has only emerged tonight.

That was the straw that broke the camels back! This friend of mine, John, warned me off Dom all that time ago. But I thought that I was big enough to look after myself and make certain decisions for myself. After mentioning this fact to my brother recently, he decided to tell me that I should have listened seriously to his advice because he is a man of knowledge about things like that. Anyway John told me of the stuff that happened with Emma but I have only this evening put the wo together and i will not think of Dom in the same way ever.

To add to this rant I am not looking for another man. I am quite hapy to be on my own but obviously there are certain needs that i have that cannot be met alone. I don't think that these urges would have bothered me half as much until I hit the town last weekend and snogged the face off a guy who I have wanted to snog for a while and then this weekend I ended up in bed with a guy who I was seeing before I actually started going out with Dom. And i threw away my vibrator a few months ago!!!

These men need no introduction because the ex still has my password to this account and I am not changing it as my head is so screwed up I will forget it minutes after I change it. But these guys actually like me when I was going out with Dom they made a point of keeping in touch not steering clear waiting for me to become single (at least I hope they weren't). Dom never made an effoort with me and I always felt that I had two children and I was stressed and ill all of the time which is not good at all. So really the main reson i broke up with him was literally for my health!

I am so lucky that i have a few VERY good friends who have listened and slagged off where appropriate.

It seems to be getting late so I will stop this now and head off to my bed Josh has nursery tomorrow and I have to staart thinking about packing for my uni tripp to Penrith.

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

The beginning ...

Hi all,

This is my first blog in a long while; I used to blog a lot on MySpace but after it's death (and the rise of Facebook) I stopped.

Let me introduce myself:

I'm Donna, 25, full-time mummy to Joshua who is 4 and I am on my summer hols after my first year at University. I am studying Geography (and I want to teach before you wonder what the hell I'm going to do with that degree). I have a boyfriend called Dom, he's 23, not Josh's dad and he doesnt live with me (lots of things to learn about me!).

Josh is the best lil man anyone will ever meet and I'm not just saying that because I am his mom I also class him as a very special friend. He starts reception class in September and is well prepared as he can count well and is getting to grips with the alphabet. It's amazing to see him pick things up so quickly. Josh's dad is not involved and hasn't been for just over a year but that does not get in our way of having fun. He is surrounded by adults most of the time and does crave playtime with other children but I tend to take him places like the Wacky Warehouse so he can get that fix especially when he is not at nursery.

I have a few good mates; for me it's quality not quantity. I have known Sara for so long now we can't agree just how long it has been. Kath is my best bud, we do almost everything together and there's rarely a day goes by that I don't see or hear off her. And there is Will, the only one of my mates who is older than me and that's only just. I went to school with him and he is Kath's boyfriend. I will mention that Dom, Kath and Will live together just a few streets away from me, they have a bigger house than me but it seems that I am the hostess most of the time.

Every summer for the last 3 years I have had to keep myself occupied and that uaully means by me trying to get into shape. Last summer it was Weight Watchers and the gym, but this summer I am going to eat healthy, do workout DVDs and (when I get it) bike everywhere.

There is only a couple of weeks before holiday and I'm getting excited. Me, Dom, Josh, Kath and Will are off to Skegness! I have never been and am assured that there is loads for all of us to get up to including Josh. Mom had a coupon book through the caravan club (yeah she is kinda middle aged!) and there was a free child's entry to Butlin's in Skegness, which is close to where we are staying so Josh will be able to have a day playing with other kids.

A reason for this blog is for me to remember what I've been up to especially with my fitness plan and also to kill a bit of time when I am so completely bored.